Where I’ve been

Dear readers,

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve shared anything on this blog, and I wanted to explain why and share my recent experiences.

I am a very confident, outgoing person, which is something that has benefitted me greatly in my life so far, and something that I am very proud of. Nevertheless, we all have feelings of self-doubt, and especially in the world of entrepreneurship, things can get especially lonely.

I’m currently pursuing a few things at a time, out of choice, namely university studies, my business ventures, Scouting, working part-time at a restaurant among other daily necessities. Some of these things, however, I am doing as a result of a need, rather than a want.

A few weeks ago, this led to real feelings of discontent, frustration, and confusion about my purpose, my path in life and the overarching: “what it is all for?”. And while I’m largely through these sentiments now, I have ummed-and-arhed about whether to share these vulnerable moments, as they show a side to life that is not traditionally associated with the hard-knock, stoic attitude of most business people. The truth is, I do have a very stiff-upper lip, and I do tend to find to time to just hush and get on with it. Nevertheless, I have decided that I would like to show a more human side to this story, and prove that we all have doubts sometimes.

I’m under no illusion that at the moment, I haven’t gotten very far in my ventures, but I’m still young, and I’m working damn hard towards everything that I believe in.

The articles on my website titled: “Onze lieve vrouwkerk”, “Werk totdat ik dood ben”, “Feest onder de sterren”, “Over identiteit”, “Over ambitie I”, and “Lente MV” are all taken from my personal hand-written diary. The dates shared on this site are accurate, and nothing has been redacted or added in post.

I recognise that these feelings will come in waves over the course of my twenties; perhaps forever. Writing about them, and being able to share them here today is a privilege and I hope that I am able to inspire some people to be more open and actively work on and accept themselves and their circumstances as I have come to over the past few weeks of reflection.

Thank you for reading.

Kind regards,

Alex